Update

Hello Everyone I know I have not posted in awhile. Things have been really crazy. As far as the last update the lady had removed her posts. I have a feeling she realized she was wrong. A lot of time has passed since then and a lot of things have changed in my life already.

2 of the major things are that my wife and I are having a baby. Second thing is paintball. So far this outlet has really seemed to help me to get away from the pains of Afghanistan as when I step on the field nothing else matters and I think about nothing but paintball.

Another thing is my child. I now have something coming into this world to share some true values with and a start to help change what the world does not see. I am glad and happy for those that have stood up and forward and thank them whole heartedly. I will soon start blogging about paintball and the life of my wife and I as we begin the journey with our little one.

I will update more on the emotions of a veteran at a later date, I just wanted to update this to let people now where I am standing at the moment as I have not said anything in a long time.

The Lies Make My Stomach Turn

Lol, I am appalled and kinda find it funny in a sick way. This lady has been bashing me from the start when when I go back to godaddy to get the screenshot of what she tried to say I said her post is nowhere to be found. She said I stated I hated this country and I never said that I said I was tired of the selfishness and greed and refused to risk my life anymore for it. As you can see fromt he screen shot, as well you can go there and view it yourself at https://www.facebook.com/GoDaddy/posts/10150163608595686 you will see I never said I "hate" my country.

This is what hurts, the lack of respect and lies to make us look bad when we are already hurting. This is what we allow. WHY? We need to defend our vets more. When disrepct like this is allowed it does not jsut hurt our living vets but hurts the ones that lost their lives and is like spitting in their face. I need to take a break as the emotion has and is becoming overwhelming.

The Disrespect Continues

So, I have decided to no longer get anger but to make points by randomly posting in certain places, godaddy in particular. Another example of the disrespect and lack of knowledge about PTSD and the effects. Just take a look at how selfish poeple are, please really look. I make a post about my blog that clearly says the mute soldier and a brief explanation of the situation. OS many people just overlook it for the money part and then I get a response from Liz.

Liz Manchen Freitas Then leave America. I agree we are a selfish nation but so are the rest. If you think the grass is greener then go. I have 4 vets in my family and they would never stop serving.
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Amazing she has 4 vets in her family and responds to another vet in this manner. Really? Again I thank you for your support and understanding Liz and am glad you agree we are a selfish nation and want to do nothing to change it. My stomach turns again to know I am screwed in the head for defending a freedom that is so precious for our youth of tomorrow while people like this just shrug their shoulders and say oh well.

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Customer: Ok this is all I needed, I am a previous customer and just wanted proof of the garbage that goes on. Unclear and misleading information so that customers buy. this will be on my blog and I have no fear telling you who I am Justin Ray, a disabled vet that got screwed by godaddy. I will copy and paste this whole conversation to my blog http://mutesoldiers.blogspot.com/
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Another Day Passes

Today was a fairly good day for me. not sure why but it was. I am still pursuing the lack of acknowledgement from Godaddy. After numerous attempts to get things resolved and work with them I end up with nothing. After several attempts to try and contact Bob Parsons I have yet to hear anything. Another corporation that cares nothing but how much they can make. I have talked with representatives, supervisors, and even tried contacting the "PRESIDENTS" office as it is called. they have no real concern for their customers, let alone their vets. they have lost that close relationship with their small investors, which is what helped them take off. Bob has obviously lost touch with his fellow vets. Some people have the mentality that different era of vets have a different level of respect and it seems that maybe the case. I do not understand with how much someone pleas they can be ignored so much. Then people wonder why people like me no longer want to stand up and help this country. the selfishness is ridiculous. We have become a nation of selfishness and greed with no respect for human life. I am going ot stop as I have had a good day and do not want to ruin it but let it be known, i am not stopping Bob parsons and will continue to speak on this until then.

Straying Away From The Story

Here I sit at 3 A.M. Easter time, exhausted. The thing is I cannot sleep. My mind is racing with thoughts again of nothing but how much I hate what I did. I hate that I served and wish I never did. I know I should not feel this way and my medals and plaques and ribbons should make me proud, but they don't. When things happen like they did tonight they make me regret doing what i did.

When I look a the struggles I have dealt with since I have been out of the service it bothers me. 5 years later and I am still trying to pickup the pieces. This isn't just me either, it includes my beautiful wife who has hung on so dearly. Pushing me and driving me, understanding me and loving me. If it was not for here I would have given up a long time ago and been like some of the vets out there that have no one and end up homeless on the streets.

People pass by them and look at them like they chose to be there and like that is where they want to be and offer no help. This makes me SICK! I am so disgusted with Americans there is no words for it right now. I just cannot express it without getting nasty so I will leave this part alone for the time being.

My mind is racing and every so many lines I have to stop and think about what I was last thinking about because in that short period of time I forgot. Racing with thoughts about how often i get disrespected as a Vet of this country. Then I think some more and realize something, If I am getting this much disrespect, there has to be way more going on because I am not the only vet out there.

I am TIRED of this and so sick of having to explain myself when people choose not to take the time to educate themselves. Who the gives the most to this country? Our veterans, our troops, our 18 -19 kids dying for something they believe so much in that only shits on them when they get done. Sorry about the cussing but I need to get some of this out.

I mean no disrespect to other organizations but why do vets only get major recognition twice a year, 4th of July and Veterans day while we have breast cancer month, Black History month, and I could go on and on. Who the heck gave us the rights to have all this freedom? Who gave you the freedom to disrespect them as they continue to do it? Get your heads out of your asses.

I am so sick of hearing people say how much they support but when it comes down to it they do nothing. I support but I don't want to help get the word out. THAT'S NOT SUPPORTING SOMETHING!

Now, the reason I feel this way tonight is Godaddy.com. Bob Parsons is the CEO of godaddy.com and I did some research and am appalled at the service I received now knowing some of his background. He is a Vietnam vet, should say something right, as a vet you'd feel comfortable going there cause hes one of us right? WRONG, you can tell ther eis nothing put in place for vets, just like when you go into a Golden Coral and they offer a senior citizens discount but no veteran discount, no offense to the older people, but that is bull****. Same concept at Godaddy. I get poor and crappy service right out the gate with their small hidden, Imma screw you in fine print, ways.

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Now you see that part in bold right there, says they will help you set it up right? WRONG AGAIN! It is limited support meaning your on your own with them. They act like it is this huge job to walk someone through setting it up when that is their job and what they offer. So now I am pissed cause my site has already been down for 2 days and I am losing money and potential customers, so I pay out of pocket to have someone set it up for me that was far cheaper and far more helpful, mind you he was from Greece. Someone I only knew for about 4 days didn't screw me and he was not an American, amazing cause I have had far worse experiences with more Americans than I have form people out of country.

So now I am just at my end and start explaining my situation about being a vet, trying to finally get my life going, being broke, I just need a little direction a I am explaining to the supervisor and he responds with," I do not see what you being a vet has anything to do with this, our customers are all equal." At one point I agreed with this until I came home and saw how much disrespect American soldiers get. WE ARE NOT EQUAL. We hold a much HIGHER moral code than most Americans and it twists my guts and my mind. I am so sick of losing sleep and stressing out over this crap. I wish I just could forget it all and move on with my life, BUT UNFORTUNATELY IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE FOR ME!. Everyday I face the same ignorance which forces me to stay in my home and not go anywhere because I get so mad and so disgusted I am afraid i will say or do something I may regret. Now this doesn't just hurt me but it hurts my family as well because I miss out on quality time with my wife and some of my good friends who i have not hung out with in a long time. Do you people see this? Do you care? No cause it shows.

Whenever I login to my facebok and post something about vets I get shit for comments or replies, like it's a job to thank our troops. the only ones that do are the ones that are really close to me and that know what it is like by talking to me, they took the time to know cause they care. I will get those out now, I want to thank Kathy, Jakis, Liz, Nick, My dad, mom, Matt, My uncle Danny, and Hippie for sowing support. That is right I can name them on two hands, sad isn't it. I fI left someone out I am sorry I am just really upset right now and rally not thinking the best as aggravation and hurt has taken over.

Here is something for you all, i can't even cry anymore, no tears, i cannot shed that healthy emotion. I have lost that feeling of sadness and gained twice as much anger and animosity towards our society, us as people, if e can call ourselves that.

I have to stop but I will say, Bob Parsons, if you have any respect for who you are, a vet you will address this. I tried contacting the presidents office, which is where Bob supposedly is and I get more support from actual humans with automated responses. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! Now to figure out what to do for the next 13 hours til I can fall asleep been up for 24, now I just have to wait for my body to wear itself out.

5 Years Old

Oh, where did I leave off? Oh ya, 5 years old. Some people may ask why at the age 5? Why not sooner? Well, that is when I actually started to understand and remember things. Things that really stuck out to me, and at that time I didn't understand why. Now, it all makes sense. We all know what it was like at that age, and oh the fun. So many friends because we all had so much in common, we were kids! Our only worries were school and playing, nothing more, nothing less. The world was a wonderful place with little to worry about and nothing else mattered.

For me, it was a little different. I was young and troubled with some untold things that ate me alive.For the time I do not care to discuss some of these things, but eventually, in time, I will. As time progressed some of these things began to bother me, I was getting older and started to really understand. I began to have some behavioral issues. It was a downhill spiral from this point on. I began to see some doctors who "acted" if they were trying to figure out what was wrong. I was diagnosed with a multitude of things from PTSD, ADHD, and whatever else they could think of. It came to a point where all they wanted to do was shove pills in y mouth. A child on a bunch of pills? Really? Is that what we resorted to with our kids? Pills?

Now remember, while all this was going on there were some deep dark secrets that nobody knew about. A point to be made, how many people just come out and say that something bad is or has happened to them? Adults know how to hide it a little better and do not generally speak of it. Kids on the other hand, have yet to learn communications skills and when they act out, this is usually a sign that something is wrong. I went on for about 7 years and it was tough til finally someone stepped in.

This was not something anyone wanted, and at that time it hurt even more then what I was going through. Department of social services. It was supposed to be a part time thing, foster care. It was supposed to be on the weekends, a res pet type thing but it got worse. I was an even more of an outcast, on top of being a troubled youth with problems nobody actually asked about. Sitting at a table eating macaroni while they ate steak, my few toys from my family broken by the vindictive spoiled children with no punishment. As I remember this I can vividly picture it all, it is time for me to take a break from this. I will continue more at a later time.